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it'sBEENaLONGnight

2009-11-15T12:40:00.001-08:00

people you've known throughout your life, change with time. it's kinda weird seeing your friends, cousins, colleagues, family members, acting all different from what you've actually seen them to be and foresee them to be. or maybe my judgements are all wrong.. always been making bad or rather wrong judgements. never gettin' away from it.

i need a holiday soon.

aloy chat up with me to catch up and what he said struck me. "i can see it"
lol. well yeah..ratehr then someone who crap his way throughout the chat thanks to the weed effect. don't try to smoke me with that alright. no one's better at getting dope than Nick Keong. though aloy been asking me to plan a gathering of sort, so does dil dogg, dean, yan and rafi.
cmon, we aren't in tekong anymore, i've quit as an "event planner" the moment i ORD. so pass it to you guys.

been bumping to people that i never thought i'll say hi to. but being the nice guy i was brought up to be, i'll still say hello.

i kinda miss the colourful side of me. it's all so dull now, no ones to blame, maybe work got me the way they want me to be. i realise that my smile just ain't the smile i want or rather i love to see myself in, the laugh just ain't as hilarious as it should be. getting older it seems. still remember the time when i keep denying the fact that i'll behave accordingly to age. dammit, u guys win the bet then.

there's no denying that i'm only in love with HER.

enoughISenough

2009-08-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

selfish.
it's about time u place both feet on the ground.
limit.

perhaps,PERHAPS,perhaps

2009-08-03T13:47:00.000-07:00

succumb.
submissive.
sacrifice.
just dunno how to react.

it's such a confusing world.
it's best to hide and not be all this, suffer in silence, which will subside as time pass.
such utter confusion.

thisISinPINK!?

2009-07-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

i didnt realise that the header for my blogpost title was in pink until a few seconds ago. NOUFIE!!! lol
well what can i say, maybe cause from the way i see it, she's the dominant one in the r/s which made her the guy and i'm the gal..well..in more ways than one.. 8)

well we finally came up with the right names for the 2 boys and the girl we'll be having, ryhan, reyza and zaafyra..tho the gal's name is still pending cos i want MY PRINCESS to have the most perfect nicest name that befit a hot beauty lady she'll grow up to be. kitty marie..i'll shower her with milk and bodyshop's stuff u know..lol..u can handle ur two princes the way u want to..

was talking to noufie about how we'll handle the kids as they grow up, told her i want them to tell me their first kiss, issit sloppy and with tongue and without tongue when their dearest mother, pointed out to me
"what if they didn't know that there's such a thing as french kissing?"

it struck me gosh than i'll be responsible for them to actually be having it..so i think that part of the question, i'll let them tell me themselves..lol..

i think having petty fights and quarrels are kind of a norm for us now, but no matter what my love for u gets stronger each day just like how thom riddle is..haha.

i love you.

evenNOWbyDASHBOARDconfessional

2009-07-26T13:59:00.001-07:00

Even now I can smell the clothes
Freshly from the wash
Still hot from the dryer

Even now I can smell your skin
To wrap you in a towel
Lay you on the bed
And try to love you

Even now I can feel your arms
I can feel your breast
I can hear your songs
And I always can find you again

Even now I can feel your hand
Gently over mine
With almost no weight at all

Even now I can feel your eyes
Watch me as I strum
Much too late at night

Even now I can see you smile
I can hear you hum
I can hear you sing
And I always can find you again

Even in the dark of night
Even in the lowest light
Even as the world outside
Is spinning, and spinning

Even now I can feel your hair
Blow across my cheek
As we sit in one of two chairs

Even now I can feel your face
Resting on my chest
Wrestling for sleep
And failing at it

Even now I can see you sleep
I can see the dream
I can see you fly
And I always can find you again
And I always can find you again
And I always can find you again

YouMadeItClearWhenYouSaid

2009-07-21T14:14:00.001-07:00

I don't know when you'll notice this is here, but maybe by the time you do, I won't be yours anymore, by your choice.

You told me you don't want to meet me.
Alright. I take it as a "get lost".
I know I asked for it.

But I'll never tell you not to see me when you wanted to.
I know my coldness hurt you, and this is my reward for it.
I'm not complaining, I deserve it. I still think you'll be better off with someone else, rather than stick to this ungrateful, cold, stubborn, unfeeling bitch.

Like I said before, you're Mr Popular, Mr It, Mr Awesome.
What the hell are you doing being with Ms Ungrateful Bitch?
Just because her parents imposed absurd 7pm curfews on her?
Which is why she's stuck at home, totally alien to "nightlife"?
Is that my only redeeming quality? Because I'm not like the others?
Is that why you're with me?

I find it hard to understand why you're with me.
You can have anyone, but still, you chose Ms Ungrateful Bitch.
Don't give me crap about how nobody is attracted to you.
If you think about it, it could also mean I'm your last resort.
Yep. Maybe that's why you're with me?

You're forever going on about karma biting your ass.
Alright, let's see mine.

#1 - three years
#2 - one year
#3 - eleven months

Cheated on them all.
Names? Four of them.
Cheated on #1 with #2, then Mr Firefighter on #2.
Cheated on #3 with you.

My karma's waiting to bite me in the ass as well.
Do your numbers make up for mine? I guess so.

So let me suggest this.
Leave me. That way some, if not all, of the karma would be gone.
And then you can end up happily ever after with your Ms Perfect.
I'm not meant to be with anyone, ass-bitten by karma or not.

Please don't feel like you have to stick with me.
What's the use? I'll just keep hurting you.
You're an idiot if you still hang around me.
So as selfish as I am, I rather you leave than suffer with me.

Don't think I won't suffer.
Cold-hearted, selfish, ungrateful, spoilt, sulky, boring, demanding.
That's Nouf Rosan Shah.

But there's that illogical streak in me that goes against my nature.
The one that will make me suffer when you leave me.
I don't know what it is, but this unnatural natural flaw in me is also the reason why I'm a nurse, and happy being one, for all the whining I do about it.
I guess you could say it's the most human quality in me. Lol.

I can't promise you I'll be the Noufie you love if we meet later.
But I can promise that I'll act like her for the time being until I straighten my problems out.

But that's not what you want, right?
So, as much as I hate doing so, I won't meet you.
Not because I don't want to, but because you "dun wanna c" me.

I know I asked for it, but damn that hurts more than my coldness could have done on you. But I have to applaud you, you're not being submissive, just the way I want it.

So thank you for standing up to me.
For not giving in to me. For telling me to stay away.
And I'm gobsmacked. I'm not running off to some other guy.
The way I did with #1,2 and 3. No urge, no need, no want to do so.
I should be proud of myself for not being the slut I was back then.
But I don't feel anything, strangely.

If this is goodbye, thank you for your time.
I wasted five months of your life, and I hope you'll forgive me for it.

And the funniest weird thing? I'm listening to this song.
It's something I think you should be singing to me, but only because my fucking ego wants to believe I'm not in the wrong.

I'd explain my insomnia and sleeping lies too, but what's the use?
And I think you meant Emma Watson.
Emma Thompson is the one playing Professor Trelawney.

I won't be contacting you.
I think it'll just make everything worse.

Tango Yankee.

cleaningOUTmyCLOSET

2009-07-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

mind all jumbled up,
past life, all with dark secrets.
last relationship, haunt me, still waiting for karma to hit me.
too many dark secrets. i want to spill the bean.

total: 4 half years.
faithful,cheat, lies, hide, love... YES.
names, Didi, Dee Lea, Ayuni, the Duo, the Trio, the nurse, the models, the support, the teacher.
random picks.

do i have to fucking wait for all these to hit me before i'm settled.
does my numbers make up for hers?

Noufie..have u? would you?

insomniac.
i'm there when she needs me,
she sleeps when i need her.
yet she....

bang this boogey.

youHAVEneverBEENinLOVE

2009-07-21T08:34:00.000-07:00

i hate quarrels.
paranoid,trust,faults,blames.

submissive..i'll stay that way but i warn you..that's not me..i will be more submissive but that will just not be ME.
things will be more better this way.

i'll get emma thompson to pacify me for the time being, or megan fox in her hot pants. whoa.

i still love you.

knockYOUdown

2009-07-17T03:52:00.000-07:00

it just hit me that i've been submissive throughout.
ok. done. over. with. that.

threeCHEERSforSWEETrevenge

2009-07-09T08:46:00.000-07:00

i guess its time to run a full check on myself on what i've gotten myself into throughout my whole 23 years, just like how my noufie did hers..

tadika.
crying > mummy needs to be there
getting no.5 and crying.
couldn't get to perform onstage and cry.
getting no. 1.
get to perform kuda kepang onstage but still cry cause photo's not taken to be publish in annual newsletter.
overall: suffering from attention deficiency.lol

primary.
imran.
bus transport.
eight days.
vandalising the bus.
shoplifting marbles.caught and let off after paying a dollar for 100 marbles.
long wallet, "CODE10"ed hair then to "JACQUELIN"ed hair, tucked in full shirt.
first smoke at P3.
fight.
kiss.butch now. haha
brass band.
soccer, 3rd place, wasn't allowed to receive throphy due to not playing for only the finals. thank you.
all the wonderful teachers that counsel me into studying at p4 onwards.
EM 1 TO EM 2.
Cikgu Salha battling for my H M T place but lose. i treasure that.
electronic toys.
ghost hunting at old red cross.
plastic ball/bottles/tennis ball/ whatever kickable soccer.
smallest bag in school. black converse.
overall: amidst all, still a shy boy that don't talk much..to girls.

secondary.
Laila and Co.
Masagoes.
NCC reject.
air rifle.
truancy.
popped.
throw a chair to the front of the class.
anger counselling.
at Fazzil's.
Fight.
Takraw.
first kitty.
bastard.
miss clarinet.
wait and wait.
Khai, Naza, Ail, Mohsin, Ham.
150, 80, 60....
"indo" flag.
tappered pants.
checquered bag exchange.
drink.
club.
chalet.
McD.
LTA.
kantoi.
overall: good to bad then, than good..or bad later.

college.
still waiting.
heartbroken.
Rugby.
Takraw.
Gegerl.
Didi.
Yishun Park automatic toilet.
Scube.
apartment.
graffiti.
daily starbucks dosage.
truancies.
MCs.
class-hopping.
a whole string.....
kicked out.
overall:way too bad..

pre-NS.
CSA, tie and shirt.
gays.
lesbians.
way much more in depth.
pick and go.
overall: too much confidence..way too much..

NS.
sheltered.
command school.
didi cover blast.
drift apart.
others cover blast.
street knowledgable.
high-class affairs.
overall: from boy to Man.

post-NS.
back at the airport.this is one hell of a place for playa.
too many involve.
airport guide.
ferrari.
movie room.
handicap toilet.
drifting further.
heartbreak.
more heartbreaks.
karma.
overall: KARMA..never believe in it..but it did happen.

if i'm not even happy with what i'm having now..i know, i'm sure, am happy with who I AM now..
doubt KARMA have come to a stop yet....

virtualSMILER

2009-07-08T12:03:00.000-07:00

noufie dearie's words *editted* 8)

To my darling sayang, Ahmad Fairuz Ridzuan Bin Zainuddin.

The one who'll be my hubby in a max of ten years down the road from now.

The one who'll be the father of the babies popping out of me.

The one who'll always make fun of me, especially when I spout bimbo comments about strawberries and such.

The one who'll I'll wake up at 3am in the morning to...............and kacau for attention.

Aaaaaaand the one who will be bitten by Sushi when I'm happily snoozing away! :3

I keep doodling :
Ahmad Fairuz Ridzuan Bin Zainuddin

Nouf Bte Rosan Shah

Sushi Bte Ahmad Fairuz Ridzuan

Ryhan Bin Ahmad Fairuz Ridzuan

Qaiyimah Bte Ahmad Fairuz Ridzuan

[See? My name is still the shortest! ^^ ]

I love you, sayang.

So the manyak-manyak.

Each time I'm free I'll think about you.

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But most of the time I just dream of holding your hand and breathing in your scent.

You smell so nice tau?

Especially at the jaw, ear, neck and ketiak.

OOOOOOOH!!! I like cium-ing your ketiak! ^^

So nice and sweet and yummy!!

And I love rubbing your tummy too!

It's not too boncet nor too abs-ish.
JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT! :3

You know I can put my head on your chest and just listen to you talk, kan?

You have a very nice voice, sayang! ^^

So deep and sexy... -Drool-

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the dots signify *bleepers* hehe

and was asleep in front of the monitor when the msg above totally wake me up and make me smile ear to ear till the back of my head..8D

i love you.

tonightGONNAbeAgoodNIGHT

2009-07-04T00:21:00.000-07:00

NEW BLOG SKIN!!! thanks to my dearest, precious, mine and only mine, treasured galfie..NOUFIE..hehe.. thank you sayang.. though the jo bros part is not necessary..that's not my to do list..i like, love, adore, the galfie's rawr section.. 8)

and you know right that i'll push everything else aside if i can just to be with you.

and this blogskin is super nice. you just know what my liking is..an i'm not being bias or nything just cause you're my galfie tau..i really really love this. and and and and and....

my mum-in-law to be is a biker..gosh..dad-in-law to be, drives..mum rides a phantom.. super duper cute like she've always been..tumpang can? 8)

and i love you. and i'm jealous sushi's kissing you ONLY...where's mine sushi??bad kitty.hmph. 8(

youGIVEmeSOMETHINGthatMAKEmeSCAREDalright

2009-06-29T07:40:00.000-07:00

noufie's been a bad kitty yesterday for taking advantage of me talking on the phone with morze and slipping in chocolats to her shopping basket..bad bad kitty..8)

not that i want to stop you from spoiling me..but i feel bad i can't do the same to you for this month due to som hiccups here and there. but fret not..next mont will be my month.

it feel great to know everything is okie but i'm pretty sure things will resurface again soone or later and i hope i know how to react this time. i just have to be the old self me again and noufie..i hope u won't hate me for that..

i love you.

and where the hell is GST when we need it.

loveWILLtearUSapartAGAIN

2009-06-27T22:57:00.000-07:00

this is how i'll sum up the day.

F
U
C
K..

thank you.

it'sSTARTEDoffWITHaKISS,itWASonlyAkiss

2009-06-23T10:00:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i last been here.
too occupied i guess, not with my dearie noufie but with my friends.
i'm sorry i've not been spending much time with you at night by keeping you company through the phone. i apologise for making you jealous unnecessarily though i like the thoughts of u being jealous about this..but it makes u upsetso i' upset as well..
but lately "sisters" been good to us by letting you have the same shift as me meaning work to and fro together like a real hubby and wifey should be. hip hip hooray.

thank you for accompanying me to anson.
thank you for being mine.
thank you for being mine to keep.
thank you for you. 8)

noufie getting me a whole meal for breakfast later, and i want a happy meal okie? with orange juice and a toy. our last toy was the mexicano crab from kinder joy... 8D

it's weird how keith pass me his "jimmys" and i'm lucky enough not to have take it up and exposed to the whole office what i've in my bag. it could pass off as a strawberry candy.lol

and poor dil dogg. he's sick. and asking him whether he's down with H1N1, he replied
"lemah aje"
k prove he's down with it. must avoid. tho my sayang would probably just get near him since she's deployed at CDC anyway. totally immune..i hope..i'm worried you know just that i don't wqant to tell you straight, though you would have find out by the time u get to my blog and scrutinise my typing.

can't wait for nas and ail to be working cause then they'll have money and we'll be sp[ending time out of bedok..like finally..instead of being around the "cheapest minimart in sg" haha..

love you nouf.
love you noufie.
love you.
I LOVE YOU.

anyway, sent her to her doorstep, to find mummy at the parapet sataring and looking at the bangla worker painting the flat. hehe..it's so funny, now i see where kitty get her "jakun" genes from. and trust me, i am freaked out to be asked to enter your house full of EVERYONE, impromptu. 8)

youBURNmySKIN,butSTILLiTURNtoYOUallNIGHTandDAY

2009-06-08T23:24:00.000-07:00

the day is finaly here though we "play cheat" since we meet up yesterday..but the tuesday we're waiting for is here..

it was intense..too intense..
no complain though. more ice please on my ice lemon tea and your soda the next time alright? 8)

out of the sudden a CODE RED song come to mind.
i wanna be a part you,
cos you're a part of me,
a love to last...
i..wanna be a part of you

haha.

noONElovesMElikeYOU

2009-06-07T11:25:00.000-07:00

tuesday...
when will it come??
what if tuesday never come?

frustrating..need you.

my spacegirl.. and naruto's whiskers and snorkerling goggle and sub-zero's mask. 8)

myDREAMisTOflyOVERtheRAINBOWsoHIGH

2009-06-04T14:35:00.000-07:00

it's not the fact that i didn't execute things correctly, but it's the guilt that make others answerable to my own mishap..
but, this prove otherwise: on how political things can get.
sacrificing one, will sweep the dirt under the rug.

but your scent calm me down.thank you.

and poker distract me well..

it's amazing how i'm 99% of her attention.. but she's 99.9% of my attention.i win.

here'sMYkeyPHILOSOPHY,aFREAKlikeMEjustNEEDSinfinity

2009-05-23T16:48:00.000-07:00

was out watching night at the museum 2 with noufie darlie and the kids, the two handsome devils and the two gorgeous angels.

boppy head einsteins are my favourite.
reddish tentacle "cube of rubik" is so awww....
elizabeth earhart is way too kinky..
and here comes the best part of all...

jonas bros as the cupids..gosh i love them in this movie, and aidil, don't get me wrong..u love them too..

they are the singing cupids with SMALLY WEENY..lol..
nice one disney..
i bet the smally girly getting all orgasmic when they see the white clayed jonas bros flying around singing lovebug..

i told you dil dogg you're going to love this.maybe some other movie will show pete wentz gets his weeny minimise.

sorry dearie but i was too tired to stay for your dinner treat plus my throat giving me the vomitting symptom. but i'll make up for it someday. promise. 8)

i know i get all uptight and pessimistic when i'm sleepy and tired, but after all the things i've said, you know that i love you don't you, still do..
hate me for this part all you want, but as long as you love me all the same, or more, is prior to the former.

and i've been reading your ultimate smiler..that photo scrapbook is so making me all smilicious. 8D
though it's just been a couple of months, but the scrapbook depict what you've got for me throughout the years before we're together..especially the green towel grin.. 8D

and always, my love, i love, your love.

iCAN'TstopSMILING,nowIcan'tSTOPnow

2009-05-18T23:38:00.000-07:00

i'm such a sickening child these past whole week.
seems like ibu's comment on me having the H1N"2" amuse my sayang. 8)

love my noufie cause she wasted a day of her 1 week leave on me to come all the way to BEDOK to send me to POLYCLINIC..though she'd prefer to send me to TTSH instead..but the thought of her sending me there is like sending her back to work when she's on leave.

"i'm outside your doorstep now..i think.."
so cute lah my darling, still can't recognise my doorstep.

i'm sweating all over now and i like it..warm me down. and i' missing her now.

i need to post up a pic of me and sushi, wif her given the fireman's lift by me but i cant remember on which account usually post pics with..urgh..

k here it is..and i love you noufie.

tomorrowI'LLmissYOU

2009-05-13T12:03:00.000-07:00

the sea's calm now, that the reflection of the sunrise glisten on it. 8)

it worries me that your battery's weaken, my energiser bunny..hehe.
dun stress yourself up, and watch the temper k dear?
just remind yourself of the voice that whisper in your ear last night to..
"close your eyes, and i'll kiss you...remember i'll always be true.."

"where are you at?"
"tgh buat kerja....."
"???...buat kerja or buat kerja..???"

it don't take long for me to figure out which of the two dil dogg was referring to the moment he said this...

"k, i'll call you back bila dah sampai office.."
dumbo..lol

badminton session with khai and fyzah was fun though i felt guilty for making my noufie butt muscle as well as arm ache rite after..
miss nursie, been a long time since she turn sporty..dearie noufie, please pardon me.. 8D
and sayang, that girl didn't look at me..i'm confident..so no worries k..
i'll try not to put on jogging shorts when playing badminton next time.
and hope u like the blue rackety i've gotten for you sweetie..

promise khai and naza last month on not to indulge myself on my "daily-dose-of" and save up..i am trying..

my dearie noufie is so cute whenever she's on sugar rush and choco blast..
and i don't have to say it, cause all my loving, i've sent to u.. 8)

swaggerLIKEus

2009-05-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

I hope my smile can distract you
I hope my fists can fight for two
So it never has to show
And you'll never know

I hope my love can blind you
I hope my arms can bind you
So you'll never have to see,
What we've grown to be

The Perisher's the pill.

"Just need you to know how i feel k.."

yeah darling, i'm saying all that not because i'm hitting on your past mistakes,
but just need you to know how i feel too..though it's unnecessary from my part.

sorry, is all that i can say,
but i know u love me, cause i love u all the same and more.

captivateMEwithHERsmile

2009-05-07T13:39:00.000-07:00

i can't resist but to type this post out though i know the place i'm at rite now, making this prone to being viewed by undesirable viewers.

was chatting up with naz on the songs we planned to play till dil dogg pop up to just tell his own mates to keep dreaming..must be one of his lousy moods..wanting to play the perisher and aqualung instead (read: missing miss cock-teaser) though he's still cool as always, i swear i've never seen that guy angry before. so CIRCUS, LOLLIPOP and VIVA LA VIDA. and unexpectedly, lollipop by framing hanley is super cool to me..such a motivation.
and naz, i'm smashing ur ARIA with em 81 and 85 humbucker together with ur pandora if u ever pulling dat "phunk'd" tingy on me again.

noufie dearie was very busy today having losing her patience on a junior..but like i always say "u look so good when u're frustrated/ agitated" though i hope u have lotsa patience cause you are with me.. hur hur.

twin girls you were telling me? eyes closed? well maybe they follow their ma's eyes, sepet..8) do they have my lashes? 8D they're sure to grow up looking like dose minah lian with fake eyelashes on them.
a thousand apologies for not recalling about ryhan's dream dear. 8(

x-men later, the anticipation is more on being with kittymarie.
did i tell you before that i love you? or did i mention that i miss you too?
i'm turning prehistoric i guess, or i've not yet had enough of saying those words.. i'll stick to the latter, ever. turning prehistoric means i'll look as wrinkled as an elephant's balls like the children's uncle wen he was a baby rite?

holdMEnotSQUEEZEme

2009-05-05T02:56:00.000-07:00

to my noufie dearie, this video, i like 8)
romantic type - pigeon detectives.
And it's not that I'm not the romantic type
It's just that I like what I choose to like.

was chatting up with mr masagoes ham, amazingly his cousin is working with me. erk.. 8X

finally got naz to be in the band, his voice is a killer. and yah no, you don't have that malay slang in you.. really.

this noufie here, she's missing from me.
urgh. come back~~!!!
and yah.. i like it wen u point out to me at BK yesterday on IF YOU SEEK AMY.hehe.

misterCURIOSITY

2009-05-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

i'm nt happy as per what you said i sound like. i m CONTENTED. 8)
thank you noufie dearie.

need to drop by your upper deck again, with sushi,you n me. that is one acrobatic kid of ours sayang. 8D

more smiler from kittymarie..

calmLIKEyou

2009-04-29T09:06:00.000-07:00

i wish i was.
someone's angry nowadays, and i like that..

she got herself a new hairstyle with me accompanying her at Velocity, it irks me from the start why she wants to cut her hair short.. as i suspected..
"cause you like girls with short hair.."
sigh. but the end product look gorgeous noufie.
japanese high end office girl hair style.
simple yet sophisticated.

apology if i look sorta piss myself dearie,
i was slightly tired and my eyes are dry,
at least after a stick i was okie. 8)
and the subsequent actions of.........
we'll get it all done by sunrise onwards alright..*smirk*

from gay, to far east to subway now..
what's next?

and yeah aidil, i gotta agree with you, we're not brand conscious,
we just happen to be buying them. lol.
"can i have a 6-inch"

noufie kittymarie internet's down.
but i'm sure sushi will keep her company,
or that boyfriend's shirt of mine will. 8) always do.

cuteWITHOUTtheE

2009-04-26T10:53:00.000-07:00

i'm oblivious to it.
i've hurt you, and now i'm afraid, very afraid.

don't say it if you don't want to and don't mean it.

whenLOVEtakesOVER

2009-04-24T23:39:00.000-07:00

white chocs in white plastic with black written notes,
" to my darling fairuz.."

thank you noufie darling,

though the tea spilled one would really2 remind meof you and you "high-on-tea" syndrome..hehe..mwah.

areYOUhopingFORaMIRACLE

2009-04-24T10:01:00.000-07:00

"running everyday, will make u use to it, and u can run more distance.."

i beg to differ from this, especially when i'm made to run on the same route every 3 days. it's such a mind-over-body SITUATION for me all the time.
anyway, i think i've gained fats from running..
k noufie dearie, you'll be the judge k since you've always been the one scrutinising that particular area..hehe 8)

just when we were talking about your dad with his "on-and-off" walking stick poking at me, and when am i ever meeting him and ma, *tada* they appear..lol.. am i lucky to actually not see pa with a stick in hand..or else... you know the story sayang..lol

visvim is the polo,
head porter is the bag,
NOUFIE is the NOUFIE of MINE..mineMINEmineMINE. 8)
and you never fail to make me lose it, though i thought i've it in control. 8D

speakingWORDSofWISDOM,letITbe

2009-04-21T20:32:00.000-07:00

i've got a pair of west gay on my feet...
Paul on my left and Smith on my right.
like finally..a paul smith..gosh was dil dogg jealous..haha.
so yeah now i'll have to be in hunger till next month..
last thing on the list- Porter Japan Black Beauty.

when those nails run across the surface of the skin,
the nerve transmits the signal for the teeth to grit hard,
the teeth to bit the lower wall of the lip,
almost lose the mind- yearn before earn.
8)

noufie dearie gotten herself a new kitten, her name's sushi,
and weirdly, she was eating sushi the food, not the kitty, the next day.
and now, piyo, manaal's kitty, and sushi is begging for my noufie dearie attention..can i be part of that attention seeking lot?
i'm sure i'm going to win hands down.

aniway sayang, it's normal for you to behave as such,
even if the same were to happen to me, i'll act the same way too and worse..
i'll let my knuckle do the talking.lol

last week, meet up with the rest of Temasek Primary School peeps of my batch at Arab St.
amazingly, they're all the same, all of us, including myself, they claim..
i am against that though, i'm pretty confident i look and behave way better than back then.
and kittymarie, u make me happier than they do k.

(8 uoy evol i

tonightI'MgonnaRESTmyCHEMISTRY

2009-04-13T22:27:00.000-07:00

i'm goin so loco for this girl name Nouf.
seem like my boyan and jawa power combination didn't deter her cina-malairen spell.
how?
Saturday is like a gazillion seconds away..i'll go measure our time apart in seconds or if i could millisecond..so that will give me the alibi that i'm not turning into a "i-miss-my-nouf" freak, cause the figure will be like a 10,20,30 digits.

not to forgot, we have this guy name fairuS who's really making himself look like an idiot who contradict his every words he's trying to say, and explaining himself to my Nouf.. i think it's better that you get your debt settled and be mature enough to explain to people that you're a beggar now and can't afford to pay anything yet rather than cooking up story after story about not being able to pay which i kinda envy. amazingly, u can pay it up a few day before and the next thing we knew, in just less than 24 hours, that money just vanish in thin air and you can't pay cause you're suddenly out of job and yada yada.
if you're saying my Nouf a working adult now and indirectly telling her that she isn't mature enough and should just settle it between you and her, i am telling you, get yourself a job, that if you can find one, and get what you owed her.
if you're mature enough yourself, admit to the fact that you can't pay up yet and in advance rather than wait till she have to be the one chasing you. fucking hell u make her look like she's the one that owe you, and i fucking ruining your future, trust me. i'll do it if i don't see whatever you haf told her you would do.

i know you're reading this up and bullshitting with the fact that you can't be bothered but in actual fact your balls are on your throat now cause you thought that my Noufie is gullible enough to borrow u such an amount and u can easily get away not paying up cause she will get tired of chasing, you're wrong boy. we'll be persistent...

i'm sorry kittyMarie for saying all this about your friend..but yeah, u know why..i don't have to explain further.. and i miss you.

theSIDEofME

2009-04-11T11:19:00.000-07:00

pissed.

and i got another smiler from noufie..

pissed.

it's the first dear. 8)

pissed.

gotten myself a new polo.

pissed.

i miss you.

pissed.

shoes are what i'm after beside the black beauty.

pissed.

have i said i miss you yet?

pissed.

i love you.

pissed.

dil dogg is so in love.

pissed.

he so gonna join the "club"..haha soon.

pissed.

i love you, though u already knew it.

pissed. i'm so going to fucking ruin his future.

sweetANDtenderHOOLIGAN

2009-04-05T23:25:00.000-07:00

my No.4 never smell this nice before. uniquely hers.

sunset at sounthermmost point of east asia is such an upset. and the Doufu's kaya toast too, though merlion walk and song of the seas waterworks and fireworks display are nice and nouf dolls are scared of darkwater..

it's such comedy to look at how my dear noufie enjoy herself so much with the waterdisplay/ fountain along merlion walk. such a wonder how it entertain her..and i'm amused..but i like seeing her happy..

and we figure a flaw in the merlion display at sentosa since we were scrutinising it at every angle possible. the head senget lah and he's cross eye.

it's sure a wet day.

talk about the different taste in drinks- stout, beer, various liqour. it's good knowing she won't and never taste any of it and not touch a lighted ciggies and she will never do so. thank you sayang.

and C.K, sorry dude can't make it for your birthday party. beside the venue itself, i don't hold anyting against not attending it, just that i end late alritght. and having morning the next day. niway, happy b'day yet again.

that kitten suppose to be ours, why would the owner gave it away to someone else? sigh. i feel attached to it the moment you show it to me. it's all in the eye..just like how i like that sepet eye of someone.hehe.

silky smooth. damp and warm.

ONE

2009-04-04T11:55:00.000-07:00

i didnt't know i have quite a number of following on this blog.
and the number is 1, O-N-E, one.

ok eat my shorts now, dude (this is a compliment to have refer to you as a dude, so say THANK YOU)

"i cannot believe what he said"
"can ask him to meet me face to face if he wants to settle this personally"

whoa, provoking me?

k lets get general.

people, is it nice to simply borrow something from someone and wait till they ask, then you start explaining your situation of not being ale to give it back yada yada...

well to me it's a yada yada for sure..

i shall not waste my time elaborating on this, especially explaining to people who tend to turn so defensive and trying to paint an innocent image of oneself to my ONE. THE ONE.

i miss her. i'm sorry that i left you hungry while i'm out with bro.
can't wait till later.

out with herman and playing with the new toy he's got. slimmest SLR. gosh such masterpiece.
and la salle project are so nice, especially the one with Joker on it and the Faces. gosh coolness.
bro, you fight fire, i capture it, who's better.lol

and no more M.P, it's Porter now..

Noufie, lap me. oops i mean love me..haha

em evol

2009-04-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

ubin was hot,tiring and aching.
juz like my inner left chest,aching.
few hours more for it to b said.
for all i knw,even what happens,i'll personally say it..cause i feel d need to,and sincere.

waiting patiently

ifIcouldTAKEyouAWAY,pretendIwasQUEEN

2009-04-01T09:19:00.000-07:00

i've to be honest..
upset with the fact that someone's trying to make noufie gullible.
he's so going to get it from me..
so mat reppish huh your boyfie..

i'm so over-
protective
concerned
the top
reacting

later today i'm going to break my ubin virginity..
first time off to pulau ubin..gosh..
but way too excited about meeting noufie..
i got a tie for you dear..

lightningTHEfuseMIGHTinAbangWITHaBANG-O

2009-03-28T07:44:00.000-07:00

finance low thanks to some crop-up with the admin department. shoots.
and i am in need of a MANHATTAN PORTAGE 25th anni vinyl black bag..urgh..have to wait till the 10th. gosh god lemme survive till then.

noufie upset me with her remarks yesterday, gosh, if it ever happen..and only god knows if she meant it or not. but i guess i have to be more mature in handling this kinda situation. but i do love you.

my love, my love, my love, why would you do this to me- R. Yamagata

girlfriendINaCOMA,iKnowIknow,it'sREALLYserious

2009-03-25T06:08:00.000-07:00

woke up late for breakfast with nouf dolls.
worse.....
"kasi afiqah mandi dulu.."
*groggy*.."huh..." shuck..

frown.

but CTE and cabbie really a big help and no thanks ERP..3 gantries..gosh. am i lucky not to drive or ride.. though the mondeo in hand. 8)

kittymarie fell asleep on my shoulder without realising while i took this chance to scrutinise her features. her lips, that lips. i tell you..it's just different.
her facial skin, radiant..just different.. now i think you're the one that belong to the cullens...k u can have your emmet while i stick by alice.haha

pleasant surprise to receive a note from her with my name, all three mind you, around the border in like gazillion time. plus a small teeny weeny scribble of my other 1/50.. just like the thing itself..

10 reasons why noufie's in love with ME.. gosh it's actually her way to fill her time up at work when the patients are patient enough to bear with their pain or needs..meaning i'm actually stalking her even without me being around...i should be charged for it by now..go on nouf dolls, sentence me..up to your discretion. 8D

sayang..u tink i can carry off wearing Ryan's hat?? i'll dump kelsi if u dump ryan too.. and carlisle too and and whoeva i know are impossible for you to even smell them. hmph. i'm one obsessive boyfie you know..what's mine, is mine and no way am i returning it unless uncle and auntie come barging in..
"oi..."
"sorry pakcik, sori makcik.."

she took my ben-she to make it her joey kanga..
i haf to stomach the butterfly but it keep fluttering away.

she's asleep now.can i wake you up??

i'llMISSyouIFyouGOforGOOD,weCANstayTOGETHER'tilTHEveryENDofTIME

2009-03-24T09:37:00.000-07:00

my nouf bites and i have the "tattoos and watches" on my arms to prove it. 8D
not that i'm complaining.

met missy noufie wif lil sis, Manaal, (do i spell it correctly?) and her ponpon (read: turtle), and idiotic, impatient dil dogg at city hall the other day after work and her retail theraphy.
thank you for KELSI NIELSEN sayang..hehehe..olesya rulin go!!!
manaal was easy to talk to, she seems to be on a constant sugar rush. 8)
sorry manaal that big sis have to cover your eyes in the train.

my noufie, never fail to perk me up. it's just her presence and plus plus plus plus other things that i swear can "kill" me if i were to go without. the power of the cinone. 8)

and aidil paying half of rachael yamagata's tix just for me..thank you my sidedish friend..

some colleagues just can't keep their hands to themselves.
so there you go..my noufie's identity is out.

" this one look chinese"
"this one look malay"
"fairuz, why your hair different?"
"but couldn't be chinese what.."

"erk..why can't it be??"

*stare*

"nice set of teeth..."

yeah, that bite. 8D

it's only been a day. only a day and we're like this. 8(
breakfast later, hope you won't be that tired.

lastNIGHTiDREAMTthatSOMEBODYlovedME

2009-03-19T10:27:00.000-07:00

was robin sharma "ing" at work while having a hard time getting use to.
dump by dil dogg since he choose to wait for miss cock teaser, can't keep smirking and smiling to myself listening to him being intoxicated with her words, actions etc etc, such a manipulative lady she is, warned him but he won't care less..

"issit love or lust dude?"
"...love first, next lust, now love-lust"

faka.

nouf kittymarie can't help making dil dogg jealous the other day and i'm evil enough to actually enjoy seeing him "suffering". dude, let your palm do the talking to us.lol

was out with khai and fyzah to mayuni omar's music cafe. had a fun time plus the fact that the band kick off playing the beatles's hello goodbye beside the fact that we're served with a liverpool's roti john by fat joe. dammit. aniway sorry to the couple for disturbing your maybe after-supper "programme". 8)

can't help thinking that allison was jealous that i'm taken now cause he was saying all this while that i'll never be down with anyone, cept being down. whatever that means, but it's sure wise of me to hang up on him. haha.

naza was telling me to be more subtle. hmm...

my poor kitty having backache and cramps, feel bad cause there's nothing much i can do to help. bad red riding hood. and my nouf sure have an attitude, it irks me, cos i feel i'm softer than her. but i like it though, such a contradiction.

blue flower in hand with her scent. fragrant my sleep.intoxicating.

spinelessSWINEScementedMINDS

2009-03-13T15:41:00.000-07:00

amry and fyzah coming over for me and noufie's arnold's dinner.
5pm for em, it's 3.30pm for us. 8)
scrubs, ohh scrubs.

me: meet me at satu suku. (quarter past 1). and suku for your info it's 15.

dil dogg: ohh..i thought suku is elbow.

that's siku lah, melayu celup.

bowled and 9-balled with the brothers, having been home alone for this upcoming 4 days.
the fam off to cameron, though some smarties thought they're heading to cameroon. o_||

i wonder how i'm going to survive this, having heard all the ghostly encounters of my colleagues at places i've been. shall turn the lights on throughout though i'm freak out having realise ma and pa room's light switch kind of switch off on it's own. erk.. or issit just me??i wonder.

my noufie is nervous and freaked herself out to just meet my friends. but you shall be a brave kitty k, for i'll be the fur that guard your skin. 8)

bootTHEgrimeOFthisWORLDinTHEcrotch

2009-03-11T16:31:00.001-07:00

"ma, ada orang nak bobal,"

*gulp* "......."

"wait, hold on,"

"......."

"........, no........."

well it's a no go on Saturday for my noufie to be out with me and the others.
8) 8X 8( hmm....

got a surprise from miss noufie the previous night. it was wonderfully written. i'm calling it the "smiler" cause it makes me smile. 8) it's the kopibear card, with miss noufie's assuring words making its content plus her passport size i.d. photo, since she's applying for the one and only position available in my heart. the kopibear card serve as the resume. 8D

met dil dogg to celebrate his belated birthday, and hearing him say miss cock teaser telling him, i'm gay for him. gosh, she's just jealous isn't she? lol.
thanks for the sound of THE SMITHS though.

noufie kinda amused with the fact that i'm shopping at NTUC fairprice. toiletries a must okie.

clinging to the blackie sweatie of yours still.
technology is HOT.

what,WHATi'dDOifIdidn'tLOVEyou,whoWOULDitBEifNOTforME

2009-03-08T16:32:00.000-07:00

dear?? can't blame me if my jealousy level is at it extreme point.

mummy trying to hold me back from headin out torturing me with her idea of being "serious" with someone, how i'm suppose to pick her up even if we'd plan to meet up at my place, how i'm suppose to send her to her doorstep(i did, didnt i??voideck count too right kitty? i'm suppose to not meet up with ma and pa of urs yet right? so must try to avoid at all cost till the time is right.haha) and thanks to her kitty marie, my dear noufie have to wait for 5 - 10mins upon arrival.

was out for breakfast at Bedok red hair ronald's joint, getting a lil bit clumsy, being intoxicated at such an early hour. and mr ran ran ruu~~ dun serve regular coffee anymore. its mcCafe premium coffee, the difference is the packaging or rather the cup. o_||

who watch the watchmen??
me and noufie and other moviegoers lah.

kittymarie was jealous that an angmoh GIRL wave and smile at me as she walk past. she was wide eyed with the fact that the GIRL flirt with me right in front of her.lol. sayang, it's only a cute 5 year old and moh GIRL who will grow up to be a gorgeous lady.. 8X

kittymarie told me a joke dat she thought most would've heard before.amazingly i haven't and same for her friend too. can't type it out here. it'll lose it novelty.

fish and co"ed" for dinner and off we go.

meet up with herman to buy prezzie for shifa. he can't wrap for nuts. trust me, the moment i see him handle the parcel, it's better off to just give the gifts as they are, market value of the stuffs kinda drop drastically the moment they're in his hand.

had a lil matter with kitty marie, but yeah, just push em aside. it'll subside soon.

describe noufie in 1 word- MINE, i'll make it 3, mine, ALL MINE!!

won'tYOUtakeMEwhereTHEstreetLIGHTSglow

2009-03-07T16:49:00.000-08:00

suspended.just when we're talking about it.
a hundred percent. 8)
late nite, my name being echoed, the sound, it's a cold, wet night.

kittymarie upset with me feeling inferior..well.told u dear..i'll overcome that soon.

comfortI'VEgotcomfortIbringTOyou

2009-03-07T00:15:00.000-08:00

her words lull him to sleep without..
"zzzz..snort...zzzz...snort..." 8)

woke up scrambling for the mobile phone.calls her to ask and nice to start the morning with a good laugh. *shy away*
i dun snore...it's heavy breathing... 8X

ur laughters, leads to euphoria.

celebrateTHEmyriadOFwaysTHATiLOVEyou

2009-03-06T19:14:00.000-08:00

"uncle, how many golden sucker do you recommend to eat up the algae of a whole pond 4 times the size of that round fan at kopishop?"

"2 dollars enough lah..3 for 2 dollars"

"3??enough huh?? its a big pond you know"

"enoughla, they are golden sucker"

so golden sucker they are..gosh..this fish going to be as big as the POWER RANGER monster when Rita or Lord Zedd throw their stick to the ground after eating the algae in my pond.

feel at lost, not being able to meet up with Noufie. but nevermind, i'll keep my mind occupied with other activities.

*meet up with aidil and miss cock teaser to have dinner at pastamania, where i purposely make it obvious that he's so into her. sorry if it kinda stir something up. 8( though i think it's a good thing.

*accompany mannok to buy prezzie for shifa later.

*shop for eau de toillette, fcuk? bvlgari? kenneth cole?

bought a shirt from celio with aidil's help to get 50 percent off..i think the salesguy like him, faggardydoo-daa-dey... will wear it for you k soon kitty? 8)

it's cinderella with a twist "of lemon"(pepsi twist style)
been miss.

captainPLANETandTHEplaneteers

2009-03-05T08:23:00.000-08:00

mulan rides khan. 8)

kitty looks so radiant in bright pink nike sweater. she shines..and oh, her ever so fair, smooth arms.. which explains why we have the same reaction when either of our arms are expose. :3 (copied your smilie dear)

8) us 8D

nad was telling me, my noufie looks like jannah..and i told her..no way(wanted to say fuck off cos i find that unacceptable, like totally hmph)

finally get to meet up with cock-teaser of aidil. so the first thing i do is to brag about noufie, though she doesn't know abt her existence till images and story start rolling. the next thing is to "tune-down" my charmness(as instructed by dil dogg) though i don't think that's necessary cause i'm already not at all; so i try to be more "kentalan bird-bird"

and noufie, i'm yours to keep. and don't let daddy shout "idiot!" k?hehe
it's an everyday affair-me, you, chocs, sweets.

don't get me all started on alphabets.......

theseTWOsidesOFmyBRAINneedTOhaveAmeeting

2009-03-02T10:29:00.000-08:00

i'm lucky you didn't kick my balls when i sneakily grab your shoulder from behind or else..i don't know who's at loss.. 8X
apology for making you believe that i'm elsewhere.

vivo was great(too small a word to describe how i felt actually) though someone have to spoil it by making me fanatical at one point, but guess those days are over and don't want to disappoint you by putting my fist to his face (read: immature method). but i won't promise if that happen again some other time. no one including myself will raise their voice at you, okie? except for your family members though, for i don't have the right to stop.

forgive you for not recognising my voice last 2 nights when i used dil dogg mobile to call you up, putting into consideration that the reception kinda bad and it's not like everyday you get to hear from me on the phone, cept for now. surprisingly, your calmness is intriguing to me. 8| thought you would go all frantick-tock-tick-tock.

promised you to have hot choc at max breinner's so there we go..having been there too the previous night with my "1/3 part of me" and his kentalan bird-bird friends( that's what he calls them). dil dogg was kinda or should i say, really upset with the fact that cock-teaser (sorry aidil, i have to call her that, but you kinda agree with me don't you?) came down to the dance play with the boyfriend and even have the cheek to ask him to join them for supper. and here i come all the way from home and cab my way to dil dogg rescue. doing it for the fact that i owe u a favour anyway, i'd rather stay home and purr up to my kitty. 8)

do me a favor and someone's impatiently waiting for you at the lobby, dear. 8D
even with tummy pain, you still insist on walking the distance. i care so i'll bear.

scents, buttons, pull, salty, marks.
of etienne aigner, ck one and strawberries.
*shies away*

epicLASTsong

2009-02-28T01:25:00.000-08:00

initially, the it's grainy, with fast shutter speed,high ISO,and big aperture..

but now, apparently, it gets clearer with low ISO, slow shutter speed and small aperture. Just waiting for the change in aperture, when it get's brighter and more light in..

having fun with SLR nowadays, having been using mannok's SLR in auto all this while, i finally can use the other function tabs on it and manual focusing too..woohoo.

but nothing can beat the joy a kitty brings, and it's only from one clingy koala, THE kitty herself 8)

dinner with Noufie THE kitty at UE square, sorry dear, blame red haired ronald's burger and fries for making me full and not being able to indulge in BJ.....ben and jerry's phish food.
"sorry sir, its fish food"
"no, no..it's pish food"

can you not go to work? *pout*

strawberry has always been my favourite, what more................
scent linger~~~

meet rip and rai at simpang with rai doing her philippine accent tingy.
"can i oh daer a big brak face and a mug chi can?"

then off to pasir ris for bowling with the MAT group. finally a 210 score with one pin miss at the last frame.dammit.
it seems like The Smith ringtone catching on with this HIPHOP RnB group.haha.
yeah this charming man..

it's not a one month thingy, lurve.

iCAN'TcontrolMYSELFwhenIseeYOUthere'sNOoneELSEwhenIgetDOWNallBYmyselfYOU;REtheONEthatIthinkABOUT

2009-02-26T07:21:00.000-08:00

i simply can't type a thing. period. 8)

kittyMARIE,tomCAT,dilGAYvirgin

2009-02-25T07:01:00.000-08:00

ironic isn't it. they went to the show with the intention of confessing to each other, it pushed her back to the one she left. dil dogg, my only advice is, break em up NOW. get evil, get nasty, don't care what others say, u're confidence are showing up now after numerous "brainwashing" session with me.

"You know right, i'm attached?"
"yah..AND??" CLASSIC!!

and dil, what is this i heard about you almost turning scandalous with kitty marie?fuck you for that and yah dun let me get started on gourging your eyeballs out for reason you know. but thanks dude for taking care of her. i owe you one for that. really, really grateful.. sorry to have bother you today and having to make u lie to your superior, telling him that you have to see the doctor because u got heartache.

things never been happier than this. yeah cliche, honeymoon, whatsoever people may call it, but yeah if it's something that both been keeping to themself for some time and not letting it known till now, ..................................................

NOUFIE, i love you. 8)

1234, 1234

2009-02-23T07:17:00.000-08:00

blog post no. 123.

it was one and half years ago. with him. with her.
green pacify tension.
presence much needed.
only to realise now.

addicted to the smiths, interpol and does it offend you. yeah?
and my kitty marie from aristocats. 8)

2009-02-21T20:56:00.000-08:00

continued...

nad just complain that my post are so boring..tho she know it well that i aint a boring person..
well nad..i told u to call me if u wanna know more..so u did..and yah i'm too happy to actually post up all of it..

beMYmirror,MYswordANDshield

2009-02-21T20:03:00.000-08:00

"..waiting for me to realise what i'm doing with you and run in the opposite direction.."
for some reasons i can't explain......

phone is up for collection.finally and that's fast too.
i'll have to wait. i'll wait patiently. patiently waiting.
it's weird being the isabella swan and you're the edward cullen.

tbc..

it'sALLaboutSONY

2009-02-20T19:09:00.000-08:00

can't wait until work start, hopefully the schedules match for most days. it's like so long till then--> movies, nachos, shopping and scents.haha

finally the phone been sent for repair after a month of agonising charging through data cable. out with dil dogg to raffles place shopping centre, then off to clark quay to meet the others and before we could all say "tar-bo-tar-bo-lampa" they're all drunk.
amazingly, people tend to try to stop themselves from consuming more alcohol when they know they're at their tipsy stage, but when they're drunk, they would dyingly say, "I'M NOT FUCKING DRUNK, YOU'RE DRUNK NOT ME. so you stop drinking, i'll drink the rest" and aniway, kratin-daeng are good substitute for alcohol, but can't resist moetchandon. sorry.

i want the wide grin from that very cute chick.

cheng-CHENG-cheng

2009-02-18T05:10:00.000-08:00

mulan and the stallion, khan. khan-ni-na lah..lol

*shock* u touch me i touch you (quoted from silver monk)

greenTOWEL,smirkUP,wetHAIR

2009-02-17T04:21:00.000-08:00

erk.smile.smirk.haha.

and to nad, i'm pretty sure you're wondering what's this post all about, just beep my mobile.

*bleep* okie. happy ending.

longISLANDtea,ANCHORsmooth,HOEGARDDEN

2009-02-14T13:36:00.000-08:00

swensen parfait is good enough to substitute B&J, especially when you're eating it with someone you knew was going through a rough patch and you're just there to make matter worst. suuuuweeeeet taste. just that lately i've been feeling nasty. i just don't give a hoot about what other felt as long as it's at my advantage. pardon me, but guess the old me is here to stay.

new shirts, new bottoms, new inners. back to square one. tokens in, credits to the game, up down up down left right A B start. sheesh.

inTHEvalleyTHATisWHEREiWANNAbe

2009-02-13T20:40:00.000-08:00

brief update. rushing late now.
happy b'day *cluck* pong. bloody thai boy. didn't realise it's your b'day if u're galfren were not to have call you. what are we here for then..lol..

congratulation to azhar, dah kahwin.. on v day summore..lucky2.
amal, if not for the fact u wud accompany me, i would'nt have make the effort to go from boon lay to bedok back to lakeside. hmph.

nouf, your jellyfish is safe i hope. i tink i'll get you a tabung aite.lol

gFc

2009-02-11T04:56:00.000-08:00

out yet again.this time to resupply on oxygen stick.

and nouf, hope u get well soon, either SGT FAIRUZ or mr-tie-fai will greet u in hospital soon..haha..ur request like as if its your last day..lol..

mind still muddled, push it out, push it out, guess in a few days time, hopefully. 1 week and all be over. over and done with. end way before it even start.lol.lmao.haha.

dashingFORtheEXIT,runningTHROUGHtheSTREET

2009-02-09T04:55:00.000-08:00

rushed back home to pack up on sum leftovers and to make myself comfy,after a hot day at reservist.
there's just something with 3 and me. 3 times been done, always in section 3 of any camp, etc etc.

i feel so...
i just feel so..
haha haha haha

aniway i have asruddin to thanks for teaching me the perimeter theraphy. it works, but yeah, i can't be walking around whole day through right. any help?

iTHINKi'mDUMBmaybeJUSThappy

2009-02-07T09:58:00.000-08:00

fix the puzzle,now i get it. not that i don't get it all along, i don't want to believe it. i thought it's just a thought that make me have an easy way out of things, but i figure, it's really the way it is. drop hints, hints dropped.
should have just kept my fingers and thoughts to myself, but being honest and "straight" are instilled in me. my bad then.
shall just chill for the moment and dil dogg where are you? bloody hell, you're only around when u need me. hit me back dude, before i hurt your sister and steal your bro's telecaster.
cheers to all, and everything.

sleepTIGHTgrimRIGHT

2009-02-06T01:22:00.000-08:00

its the year of the gentleman. okie bear that in mind.lol
i wanna play in the sun..not work.but the weather been rather solemn lately..which at time is good..early nite..fresh for work.

yoursIStheONLYversionOFmyDESERTIONthatIcouldEVERsubscribeTO

2009-02-04T22:19:00.000-08:00

ehem ehem ehem. damn sore throat.
exactly 4 more days to reservist.
fucking hate the fact that i have to stay in from monday till friday.

beforeWEsmashTOsmithereens

2009-02-03T19:50:00.000-08:00

something not right, but what is it?
it couldn't be just me, it had to be. wait till it surface.
thought it's the lack of sleep. but no.
was at simpang with ekel and alin, ail. even they say i looked "occupied" but i dunno what is it about. but as usual, we always have something to laugh about..
"prata kosong cili hijau satu...lima dollar punya..!!!" lmao

kidulthoodTOadulthood

2009-02-03T13:00:00.000-08:00

was in the car, the words linger. think back, it is true. i've mature i guess..
NO!!
feel kinda piss with myself. uoy kcuf

meWHYcan'tWElookTHEotherWAY

2009-02-02T08:56:00.000-08:00

counting down to the day.dead and gone.urgh.turn green again with 3 stripes

iTURNmyHEADtoTHEeast,Idon'tSEEnobodyBYmySIDE

2009-01-31T09:53:00.000-08:00

was out on retail theraphy with dil dogg but fucken him..just wander around town lookin for interpol's first album which we finally found at heeren's hmv.went to paragon to enter several shops which i've asked him to check on the price of some of the item which i find too ridiculous..a handphone strap from BOTTEGA VENETTA at 260sing.cmon..LA MER face moisturing cream 15ml at 300sing..hahaha..
we were eyeing a shirt from ben sherman but hold back against it tinking about sales being around the corner..smart shoppers..
fucken dil dogg just kept talking about his colleague who he have interest for..that lady's attached for godsake..and u're talking to a guy like me who will give you the worst case scenario and negative persepctive..lol..cry your heart out boy..lmao.

met ail rite after with him beeping me up saying he's hungry so the nice me bought him mcchix at mcd.
my body's aching due to the mini crosscountry run of 5klik.and it still aching real bad wen i woke up this morning.had nothing to keep myself occupied that i m reading twilight and new moon at the same time.. wen can i have my isabella swan??lol..
k .done.

aMILLIaMILLIaMILLIaMILLI~~~

2009-01-25T12:53:00.000-08:00

how the most organic thing, from not being able to make it to something major.
happening shit, no, shit happens.
bump on right arm and thigh.
need a blow, got a blow.

smokeWEEDeveryday

2009-01-24T15:41:00.000-08:00

DOPEY DADDY

"The father was very surprised to see us and insisted he hadn't called police. The officers then observed his 11-month old child playing with a cordless phone, pressing buttons randomly. It appears the baby called us."

-- A Canadian police spokeswoman tells reporters what happened when officers entered a house in response to an emergency phone call in which the caller hung up without saying a word. The police conducted a search of the home and found 500 marijuana plants growing under lights in two locked rooms. The 29-year-old father was then arrested.

bite off from MSN news.

J'ai toujours porte bonheur aux hommes...LOL

2009-01-24T15:17:00.000-08:00

the conversation we had at al-ameen while having supper turn out to be such bore that we decided to name ALL our sec 4 mates, coming up with weird names for the "missing" people, assuming that they actually went missing after school excursion and so their names are blank out of our mind, thinking about who we could have dated back then, who we've been with, weird incidents, who we've met and changed, from the hot to being normal, from the decent to nonsense, from the normal to normal..but naming all our mates of our batch seems to irk them so much that they actually make their way to Mohsin's, all the way a Sengkang, just to get the yearbook to actually see who we've actually failed to name..haha.. I'm off by then, told em i can't be bothered much,lol..but actually it does..reach home, after persuading them to send me off first before proceeding to Mohsin's, and look thru facebook and googled Bedok View Sec 4 2002..lol

it felt like it's been a long time...

didYOUgetTHErealGOODones

2009-01-23T10:21:00.000-08:00

Arip text me in the afternoon asking me whether i'll be free to meet up, so no, working..
Evening..walking home the usual route and saw him and Rai..talk, brag, eat, gossip, etc etc..

the weather's been hot lately..way too hot..

tryPLEASINGwithSTEALTH,rodeo

2009-01-17T09:48:00.000-08:00

aidil dogg have always been my indie partner, entourage partner, shopping partner..and weirdly we ain't gay..lol..lmao..
presenting AIDIL the 24 year old virgin..Nick and me tried helping you out but too bad..she speak in slang..lol..work ur words dude..

shop with "ah-boo~~" haha..off to chalet,home. done. and yah i want that "offside" SPRINGFIELD in my size..sigh..dissapointing..

shootTHErunnerSHOOTshootTHErunner

2009-01-14T05:00:00.000-08:00

WAS out wif "anjarpan d/o achappan" and "linesh" to eat at SAKUNTHALA'S and shop for my deodorant and perfume at Mustafa.Lacoste CK 1 all checked and earphones too.only thing left..Threading..lol..

MET aidil to eat at FLATTEN CHIX RICE at lucky plaza..went round and round and i guess shirt sizes are not being friendly to me..no M, no 15 half chest size.urgh.. but atleast got my onitsuka.woohoo..

k i WAS in my smily mood just now..but now i feel lost.k that's about it all.guess my period is here..haha..k period.

peaceSIGNwithTHEindexDOWN

2009-01-08T07:22:00.000-08:00

show that sign to me. im feeling farkedup.u know the kinda feeling when people's movement, attitude towards you, are seen as if they're saying "farkouf"

do people tease to please? or are we teased to please?

hotANDcold

2009-01-05T06:13:00.000-08:00

NYE celebration- Marina Barrage=pack and full.
Esplanade=stars fall from d sky.woohoo.
Cuppage, Chill Bar=a known DJ spining,friends drunk to take care of, Home at around 7 am.

Saturday.
Bowl at P Ris E Hub. 1st Game warm Up, 2nd game, never be able to achieve turkey with 2 strikes and spare all d way..in sequence. mr teh tarik till 6 am.

Now
getting things ready for presentation tomorrow.

Can't wait till 12th. *smirk*

mySIGNisVITAL,myHANDisCOLD

2008-12-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

3 days more to twenty oh 9.
happy days are here.
too happy till i am at lost of words.
(excuses)lol

i'mLACKINGinDEPTH

2008-12-25T04:41:00.000-08:00

alone i stand, together, we'll fall apart.
tables, they turn sometime, someday, always.

out with Naza till late,shop and shop and shop.bought a golf berm..kept wondering how they ever be able to carry the looks with loafers and pants above the knees.lot of things catch my eye,lacoste polo, pedro sandals, paul smith shoes, club marc shirt..d list goes on and on but all will have to wait until next month.

challenging myself to a brazilian wax. haha.told mum about it, weirdly she said okie, d last time i ask her i want to go for threading she said okie but when i was about to go,she stop me.fickle minded mummy.we'll see how it'll go next month.

next month next month next month..urgh..why couldn't they just make it this month.
shut up and let me go HEY~~!!!

areWEhumanORareWEdenser

2008-12-22T05:48:00.000-08:00

been listening a lot to the killers.poetical lyrics.
breathtaking videos.

banging my fingers to the strokes too..that summarise the day for me.

luckyTObeCOMINGhomeAGAIN

2008-12-19T06:21:00.000-08:00

feelin' kinda lazy lately.too much run.too much air-con.too much late-nites.too much of myself.big pimple on the right side of the head make it worse.too much energy figuring out how to make it *poof*.just too much nowadays, whatever it may be.

lovehandles gone.i wonder am i fat last time or am i turning fat??stretch marks appear on areas that i myself dun notice.so be it niway.just too tired to think but cant sleep or rest.curse bodyclock.

okie YEH YEH OHH~~~

soundOFtheSTEREOdimOFtheSOFTlight

2008-12-16T08:12:00.000-08:00

zoukout in overall was fun,NAD,FIR,HADI,HAM,ISZY,kuzzie YAN,AFIQ,SHIMA,FADZLIN,IMRAN,ALOY,PARDEEP and many others i met but missed out here. YODA and SASHA wrecked my head OUT.

banged banged boogied, tickled my fizzled cheezel. *smirk* That describe everything.

an arsonist burn my brain cell,kept me awake throughout,and radiohead's JUST videoclip where the man mumbled sumting at the end part kept me company.

it'sAMAZINGhowAMAZING

2008-12-12T11:23:00.000-08:00

addicted to 808's and heartbreak..how weird KW mite've sound
how could they held back my pay till next month??
this month is THE month..next month is the end of THE month..
i need my retails' supplements..

dun tink too much..it's just decent..normal.fuh.

noALARMnoSURPRISES.silence

2008-12-07T10:08:00.000-08:00

gosh,woke up at around 1300 and walk around the house.exercise the muscles i guess.sit back,relax,sip the nescafe IBU make for me,guitar of 5 strings in hand and play a tune from the JONAS bros,taught by my Lil Bro..not focusing much,pondering on wat to do today..beep up the usual to no reply,so wait and wait.

1800 hrs, get online,chatted with Dzul Mimi, long time since i last met that "hearty" kid..lol..he claims he's tanduky..i was wondering wats dat till he ask me to translate it to english..so yeah..hw can i not tink of dat knowing him..sic.

start bathing once i hear the takbir on the radio, road to redemption at that point of time, till Ail text me to meet him up in his new Civic.
was lighting up a cig and staring at blank space, wen a guy just shout "LINCAHLAH!!"
haha..caught me by surprise..Ail and Civic..lol..impossible..but it's right in front of my eye..get in the car off to pick Ekel and Nora.
Supper at Simpang,(sumone craving for Cheesecake it seems..lol)had western, tease Nora since she believe that i am 18,goin into NS..haha

met HER fren, and she was asking "dgn siti??" i was like giving her the WTF face..lol..well cant blame her..she said..."Biarkanlah dia..move on aje.."i've move on my dear..just that is there anyone that's game enough to be my date?lol

make a move at 0000 cause Ekel and Nora,and Ail and i-dunno-who have plans of their own..hmm how i wish i have somebody..
overall today was such a boring day.blast my ears with RADIOHEAD.

itsANindianAFFAIR

2008-12-06T08:56:00.000-08:00

yesterday, hang out with Naz and Azmie..to be join later by Amirah and Reka"chu"...GOSH it makes me wonder issit legal to actually build a relationship with a fellow student..or the person u tutor..disturbed the 2 couples cause i won't be getting the attention i need if they were to be left unentertain..

well yesterday it's been proven to me that getting hitch up with a 16 year old girl is not at all paedophilic..rite Naz..lol..so yah..i guess i'll set my limit of age range for girls to be with me to be from 16 onwards..lol..

meet up the rest at orchard today.tot of attending the Ben Jerry's Event at fort canning but Aidil said it's too gay to be out with a guy and eating icecream..u are one remember?and instead me, him and the rest head down to buy a gift for Rajan..frm fred perry to revoltage to a perfume shop..where we all share to get sumting for him and which we went down to zara to get a paper bag and sum stuffs.Hady on his bike, the Cina gang in their car,leavin me, Dil and Haz in the cab off to Mt faber.

Rajan..Happy Bday dude..dat was a great party wud say cept the fact y do u have to keep playing indian music and make me dance the chicago and eagle..haha..and yah tanx for the Saree crossdressing yah..sorry to haf chosen ur galfie to be the one that wear it for me.lol..

i sound like a frog okie??umbrella and I'm Yours of yours are nice..lol

ghostOFme

2008-12-04T07:45:00.000-08:00

since i myself is in a state of lost and confuse, let me share it with all of u so you can get to a state of euphoria like i am..ironically.no words can describe wat it is..guess it haven't exist yet or due to my pea-sized brain, and puddle-like pool of knowledge, we'll all have to wait till OXFORD come up with the word or someone in wikipedia decide to call it fairuziastic,a state of fairuziam.

the trip starts now.

like i say i wouldn't throw it,i didn't rite?
it just drop,hit the iron caste and down.
i make it slip,and it drop.
signed,sealed,delivered.

i follow,i'm being followed.
i have questions,i question, i'm questioned

ok, that's about all to what happened today.and yah someone better lull me to sleep with I'M YOURS..*smirky smile*

careerCAREcarrier

2008-12-01T03:48:00.000-08:00

surprises,that's all i cud say..full of surprises,be it my career,my friendship, to sum it all,my WHOLE LIFE..paradoxically,exciting but doesn't excite me.

how could a girl stick by a guy that beat her up?one punch, more love.i guess i'll start walking down the street and give a low blow to women, that attract my eye, just so that they would get me,date me,bed me.

was down at p ris the other time to attend the MJ12 pit.couple of fun,having to meet "wifey" for the first time.drag my kuzzie and our family friend along,guess they're catching more eyes den i do.didn't join the rest of the MJ12-MELAYU-SG gang to ghost hunt cause we're off to sentosa for sum RAVE fun..stayed till next morning to haf breakfast at BK courtesy of Afiq and kuzzie Ian.can't wait till the real rave on 13TH DEC...that if i had enough cash to go with..urgh..i hate being broke.

liveBETTERlife

2008-11-23T10:23:00.000-08:00

was out watching beverly hill's chihuahua, tinking that it'll make me laugh my feelings out,but to no avail.walk through ORD bridge at clark quay,reminiscene the time with all the buddies i ever been there with.but one corner of that bridge simply make me think back at what i have been trying to avoid thinking about.smoke and just listen to the booming music of a corner bar,what exactly have gotten into me.time-check:0130.hail a cab and the uncle kind of the one that makes me have a a laughing good time,listening to his taxi's antics,him speeding past chrysler taxi and rolling down the window to spit.but his tone turn serious when he ask me where i am working at.he slows down and ask me about internal affair.i was giving him the sinister smile throughout.

i want my old self back, the guy who's full of confidence,egoistic,narcicist,vain.where are you?

twistedWITHaTWIST

2008-11-22T11:09:00.000-08:00

was out at a corner bar at raffles place to celebrate aloy's birthday yesterday,having called me at 12 to ask me to come down.didn't expect it to be a chinese ktv bar,but yeah lucky enough they played english songs too.sang a few tunes before greeted by ayam's call to come over to RAV.was too crooked by then to make my way there so went over to aidil's place to chill for a while before heading home at 8.

woken up by irma's call,to my surprise she's back from bintan.supposedly she have a stopover before heading to port dickson.head out to fir's place,his parents being overseas, to haf dinner and a drink here and there.beep liyana up but by the time she plan things out,i was feeling too "weird", as per what she claim me to be,so home it'll be then.made an effort to call khai up to ask him if he had any plans..but he's working the next day,so it's best to not bother him.

azmie,sorry to have woken you up,but u strike my mind at 2 a.m,haha..thanks for the advice dude.bear that in mind, you silver bayonet thief.that was supposedly mine..and you still owe me and naz fish and co.i've changed it to billy bombers or u.s diners now.

life have never been easier now,though questions still lingers.i just want her to get "all-out" with me.no more hiding,no more lying.it won't hurt me much.

stayOVERhangOVER

2008-11-20T13:19:00.000-08:00

it was a day like no other,nad came over,listen to my wikipedia cousin about spotting her to be a scorpio,she looking like his ex-fiancee(true enough,it doesn't hit me until pointed),sending her home afterwhich in the rain...feel bad cause it's late and guilty for having her to withstand my cousin's words of wisdom,our mockery of she and her "bombay-da-India" fetish,when her intention of coming was to have a decent meal.a thousand apologies(in the "u-know-what" acccent)..but i guess u have a good time laughing your loud laugh..haha.trademark of yours huh.

had khai and naza to come over late night cause i am home alone.hacked khai's g900 to be like mine,while they entertained themselves on my torturous massage chair,khai claiming it to be orgasmic while naza said he felt lighter.the 2 stooges have a ball of a time on winning eleven which till now i never really see the "shiok" factor about it.had breakfast at McD and off they go.

lonesome yet again,irma's off to bintan for her assignments,gosh tuesday is still a long way.hopefully nad be able to fill up my time later today,having to cancel our PENTAS due to some unforeseen circumstances.i just need something to FILL ME IN,so i won't feel lonesome.i don't want to think, i don't want to feel, i don't want to sense, i just don't want, but i can't.

cousin Yan asked me to blast my ears with psy trance,but me all alone??it's just not there.maybe i should pop more,keep on poppin'..

pills,pills,pills, remind myself, i hate medicine.i really do.pills are medicine,so i hate them.

move.SHAKE.drop

2008-11-18T05:07:00.000-08:00

miss.patienly waiting.forgotten.gone.
pop.shake.trip.drop.

never thought it'll drive me to this extent.but that will be the one and only time i'll do that.no more.enough is enough.see the point,see no point.

she shed tears for me,to see a friend taking it to this extent.
she take it too cause she thought that's the best way for me not to take it.
sorry _ _ _ _....u are my pillar for NOW.

bulletINtheHEAD

2008-11-17T03:45:00.000-08:00

saturday

watch soccer at jurong's teh tarik house after rounding thruout the whole of the west side looking for a coffeeshop that broadcast the man utd's game instead of arsenal's.treat them to murtabak that took 45mins to make, maybe the one that made it is a malay,not an indian, so the time consume to make one is explainable, maybe due to couple of failed attempt?god knows.head to bowl at p ris rite after and afterwhich accompanied a friend ,who was so worried about his galfie not picking up his calls and reply his messages,to yishun,her place only to find that she's sound asleep.back at bedok,time check-0400hrs.cant sleep,roll around till 0500.

sunday

0845,greeted with "can't help but wait" and put it to snooze and go back to sleep only to be awaken by ibu's pinch.head down to tamp ave 9 for kendarat.surprisingly, it's mira brother's wedding.such an awesome girl but yeah she warn me to "better do a good job".to add more to the "pressure", i am the only male kendarat in the group,first time working for them.lucky enough to have nadiah shafiee to be with me.by the way nad, sorry if i took away the chances of that guy that wanted to get to know you, having seen me and you being rather close,mistaken to be seen as a couple.but i am pretty sure he's out of your league,correction, pretty fucking damn sure.lol.and yah, there's this girl too who, i have no idea why,with my hands full of plates and cups,just pull me by the shoulder and exclaim "i am headin to vietnam tomorrow".excuse me??do i give a hoot?just smile and say "good then but what's there?"cocky me doin the talking yet again.she went yada yada, i just smile and walk away.function ends at 1800,get paid straight,chill with nad by the road while talking about indians, no offence but my dear friend here just have something for them,her type of guy.and nad, the same typical line "IT JUST HAPPEN" lol..head home straight rite after only to be out again at 2000.

2030,need tixs to PENTAS.asking irma or nad to follow,the former having night shoots on that day but reconfirming with me,or i will ask the latter to be with me.it's a sold out but yeah ANIYSH can help me out.thanks scandal. :P

meet up the rest at SAKAJ and head to bowl at p ris yet again,good frames for most of us,but was focusing on my eyesbags instead of the pins.BOTHERMME doesnt work for godsake.head to KBOX,then off to simpang bedok.time check-0300.irma on the other hand is not asleep yet and plan to take up her old habit.gosh.

talk to HER that night at 0400 and she spill the bean,not all that i know but some of it.i don't know why, i feel sorry for her though,not sympathy but sorry.hmm..u make the choice to,what more can i do but to just advise.nad i think i need to take up courses on how to be like indians.i need their love aura..

madABOUTmadagascar

2008-11-14T14:11:00.000-08:00

penguin to the madagascar's characters onboard the plane - "In the case of a water emergency, place the vest over your head then kiss your *pop* goodbye! In case of a loss in cabin pressure, place the mask over your face to hide your terrifying expression from the other passengers." ROFLMAO

king julian to melman the giraffe - "Well, you gotta march right up to this woman, right? You look her right in the eye, you lean forward, right? Just a little - almost all the way. then you let her, like, lean forward, just a little bit until you're just a lips' distance away from each other. And then you just tell her...how much you HATE her." LOL

gloria the hippo to melman the giraffe - "I can't believe I thought I had to go halfway across the world to find out that the perfect guy for me was always right next door." SIGH

hurt?WELL,define.

2008-11-14T11:37:00.000-08:00

how cud one be hurt by the words "i m missing u"?
or cud it be the "i dunno y"??
y is there a "sory" to it?
wat exactly is the apology for?
question after question after question..a total enigma..

issit guilt that transcends her feelings of tinking that she mite hurt me...for all i know..i feel touched in a way..if i were not to tink abt wateva i've seen,known,or as she calls it "assumption".

i remembered a "promise" made in the train..pinky swear to add with it,tinking back i just laugh it off..d same day it was made..is the same day it's broken..to add more comedy to it---it might've been done way before..

well,why issit so hard for one to tell even when the other found out?frankly speaking,to be "caught,found out" is more hurtful then to be told about.

so to whoever u are,though i doubt u be reading this,just say it, spill the bean.i have to admit it'll be HURTFUL but at least it'll EASE the pain and thoughts.ironic, but i know myself well to know the outcome of it.more self thoughts being pumped out,makes me drift away,pathetically sounding-"u won't want that to happen don't you"

kanyeWEST'Sheartless

2008-11-12T09:24:00.000-08:00

Heartless (Unmastered) - Kanye West

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so,
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talking to me yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me yo
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo I know of some things that you ain't told me
And yo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back
And you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend
Well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of me that I don't know
I decided we weren't gonna speak so why we up 3 a.m. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me for, homie I don't know she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up cause I already know how this thing goes,
You run and tell your friends that you're leavin' me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk,
Baby lets just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
and you can't make it right
Im gon' take off tonight
In to the night.

In the night I hear 'em talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless

aWOMAN'Sworth

2008-11-12T08:54:00.000-08:00

is she worth the wait?
no confident of herself to accept,wateva she's done in the frame of 3 mths,ease the pain thru lust,"romance" = move on??well one gain,the other despair.
she've been thru it and survive.

her changes now are drastic.too much for someone who knew her well to accept.she said that's how the whole group behave like,but when you're only with him...issit necessary?will it be seen in the same light?

countless time you lied,you cover up,you change topic,you turn aggressive,irritated..the behaviour of one when one sees that there's no other way out but to act agitated and makes the other just give up on knowing.

my street knowledge are vast,a game i've played long before you does.be optimistic??i am..that's why i have all the "assumption" i've made..cause lying to oneself is worse then lying to another.

oh baby you, you got what i need,well she said, "He's just a Friend".

thanks to all who's been altruistic to me.

afterALLthisWHILE_nowITstruckME

2008-11-11T13:00:00.000-08:00

time and space is all she wants,she's confused,time and space to see whether still behave as such soon after,den she continue by saying she want her feelings to cum back,and add she needs time to study,to focus..................

.........but why does she spend her nite time,her free time with her frens in particular HIM,no matter hw late it is, she still haf time to sit and talk,and yah where she heads to wif HIM?not a concern actually,but cum to tink..in just 2 mths,u can gain comfort out of sum1?rest on d shoulder,hug,hold hands,these are the confirmed actions,the unconfirmed, tho there's something to back it up, as long as she said NO, it still a NO."IT JUST HAPPENS"true enuff who am I to stop her?but wat kinda fren especially sum1 dat emotionally attached to,or in her case use to be, wud wanna see her USED?stop b4 it happens,once done,a remembrance.INSTINCTS so far have proven itself rite.

mum's words are always rite,not cos of mummy's boy thinking,but it just happen to be so.tanx IBU for the "knock,knock,knockin' on" mind long talk.

bro,we've talked, we've seen, we've discussed,even u agree to it to a certain extent,much of favor for it....THANK YOU.

sis,ur words this morning mite be true..but there's loophole to the outcome of it all.THANK YOU.

bottomline is,she is confuse,her stories,didnt fix in well.words of a confuse girl,who hide things,trying to create an alibi to it. now making all of us confuse too.

frm that incident from past 2 days,wanted to talk to her,but happen to be HIM who do all d talkin,HE filled wif fear and too much to say,while SHE looks shocked,angry,mixed,so turned mute.saw wif own eye,nt a pair of eyes,bt 2 pairs,cud be 3 to include bro spectacles.no point getting explainations,just alibi,cover up.INSTINCTS always right.

DECEMBER, till den,not one but all would see,a fine example of "reasons/excuses-to-escape" from telling the truth cud lead one to such extent.a gal of paradox.

if u don't like what other's done to you, don't do it on others.DECEMBER it will be.till then,a msg a day,gif her time and space,make tings her way.